Harini’s WebLog

I know its very strange subject.QUESTION MARK but i dont know what to write in the subject, as also i dont have any specific matter to write about.
Well the weekend was asusual, nothing much.Went out buying few crafts items and to the temple met Hari/Visa.Got saradu for myself visa and sushi(am yet to post it to her!!!!)
As always the weekend flew off.Friday nights are so good because we have 2 great days to look fwd to but sunday nights are so bad and boring as the week starts ,bringing along lots of busy schedules.
Well i am sure many of u are thinking y i am worried about weekends and busy schedules, but what to do?I am connected with my husband and him being busy means me getting bored.
Off late i have started feeling bored at home especially during the day times.My main timepass during the dya is GYM.I spend a lot of time there but i still dont know if its that helpful.Other than that i do a little bit of crafts toy making and stuffs.
You knwo what?? one fine evening when we were starting to go out for a dinner with Sudhar’s colleagues we came across this Toy Design Course @ FIT.I remember we were so excited about it.WE slowly started thinking about it and now we have come quite far with our thoughts.
We contacted the School, spoke to them and they agreed to meet me with my portfolio although the date for the Fall Admissions is over.
I dont know what the standards are here like and i also dont know if i am apt for it?But still wanted to give it a shot, I didnt wanna lose this oppurtunity.I do make stuffed toys as a hobby but a course, its so good to even think about it :).
I have started working on my portfolio doing a little bit of things and also asked my mom to send me snaps of few of my work back in India.
But stil each and every moment i am living with the fear of what if i dont get it?

It might sound very simple and easy to think and to say for people “What if you dont get, try something else”?? But its not veyr simple for me.
I have had a major tragedy linked wiht me. I and studies probably dont go together, and one incident spoilt everything in my life.
All my aims,all my feelings to grow furthur to study died with it.
All these years i did my graduation and studies just for the sake of it, was never this interested so much in it.
I am seeing myself so excited and enthusiastic about something and that too a course ater so many years.I dont knwo how it has come all of a sudden.But now when i am willing to do it i dont wanna fail again.
This failure scares me .I might sound really silly saying all this, but i ahve developed a kind of phobia for exams schools tests etc.
I can already feel the stress developing inside me. Physically and mentally. I cannot take it furthur, i just wanna get in their and need to fight against all this.
And i also know that i am a pain for the person who is with me when i am totally stressed out. God give strength to that person…:)
I feel that once i get it i shall do good. It might take sometime for me to adjust to learn this technology and way of studying and also to come upto their level but i am sure i can do it.
I just hope i get a chance to do it.Sushi , Sudhar and my mom are being very helpful and supportive .They encourage me a lot. Thanks…
This is the only upcoming thing right now.
So many things are pending because of it, my shopping nails etc etc.
Now have to wait and watch if i a get a chance to do all this??? Will i be able to do it??
Shall attend the interview and let u all know about it.
Bye and wish me luck

Weekends come and go very fast, but still they are good.Especially because we spend the whole day together and also we can go out anywhere we want to.
This time we first wanted to go skiing as its been a long time since we went and also the season is getting over, but then we decided to call Suresh and Indu for lunch.
Suresh is Sudhar’s college friend his wife is Indu and they have a sweet little daughter Srilakshmi.
They agreed for coming home on saturday for lunch. It was due for a long time, as they were not going out much during the winter(bcos of their daughter).
The day was bright and sunny and it was also not very cold.Around 12.30 they reached here.
As soon as they entered our building Sri started crying,she understood that the place was new.It took us about an hour to console her.Finally she was settled.We all decided to eat as we were very hungry. In turn we ate and either Indu or Suresh ahd to take care of Sri.
Well after finishing the dinner we went around the riverside for a small walk but it was very windy so me and indu came back with the kid. She slept inbetween and after that we could spend sometime leisurely talking.
After a cup of Tea they started as they also wanted to go out shoppping.It was good to spend time with them.They have invited us for their daughter’s first b’day which is on March 20th.
We spoke to my amma and luckily appa was there.After a long time i was talking to appa, and sudharshan was also talking to them for sometime.
The day was over. As i said weekends go very quickly, Saturday was already over.
Saturday night i slept early but Sudhar was watching Virumandi for a long time.I dont knwo how it was but i didnt like it, too much of violence.
Sunday morning was usual we spoke to Sridhar, amma was not there she has gone to Kumbakonam for Maha Magham.
We spoke to Sushi she was saying that she’s been having headaches for sometime and she had been to the doctor. He told her that its because of stress and homesickness. She will be fine :)…. nothing to worry!!!
Now to do something new and different we decided to go to Botanical GARdens .Orchids Show was going on in there.
We had a good time, it was a peaceful good place.All the time i was thinking and missing thatha.He would have loved all this, i remember how he used to tell me that once i take up a big house with garden he will come and stay with me and take care of the garden and flowers and plants.He loved all this.
We bought a cactus and a small plant.Thatha loved cactus. They look sweet in our living room.They remind me of thatha and also make me feel that he is here with me :)……….i knwo he can never go far from me, as he loved me very much
Smita my schoold friend called up jsut now, i am bad i dont call them but what to do when i am free during the day time they will be busy and when they r free i am busy………but i promised to call her lets see if i keep up my promise :)
The day is over, a new week starts tomorrow.
Shall write later what all i did during the week and how my cactus is growing :)
also we have some new plans coming up ………………
Tata Good night!!!

We have been asking Sushi to come over for a long time.Probably from the time when she came in december.I remember we had been to Ithaca to drop her .That time she said that she will come during her Spring break which is for about 10 days.
Well but now she came a now as probably she was very bored and also she needed a change.We were also in need of change although we have been having changes(detroit trip). :)
It was a wonderful change and we ahd a great time with Sushi. But the sad part is that she might not be able to come and stay for a long time during her spring break as her Prof is thinking of continuing with the work.
Well we can decide about it later as we are also planning to go to Chicago during that time as Hinduja also goes to school and will be free then.
Sushi madam came just for 2 days, she started on friday evening @4.30 pm bus and reached here around 9.30 pm.
She siad she will call us once she is in Lincoln Tunnel and poor girl she calculated wrong and reached imd after they crossed Lincoln tunnel.
The worst part was that when she called us we were still at home and she was already in Port Authority.Lucky girl that day we reached city in just 30 mins thanks to Holland Tunnel which was free.In these 3 months in Jersey City only once or twice i have seen it free.
We had taken some food for her as it was getting late, we went picked her up and reached home around 10.30pm.WE were talking for sometime and then we decided to sleep .The day was over soon.
Next day morning was usual just that Sushi was here to share the routine early morning with us.
We all had tea and then me and Sushi went down for a small walk at the riverside and to enjoy the beautiful Manhattan skyline.We were talking for a long time, its good to speak to Sushi and very comfortable also.We were talking for a long time and she was also saying that she wants to finish her Phd and tink of her future .After a small walk for about 45 mins we came back as i had to cook for the lunch.The good thing was that Sudhar reminded Sushi to take her cell along jsut in case. and Lucky girl she got a call from her dad.She was very happy after talking to him.
We had some pudhina thogayal , Rasam and kovakkai sabji for lunch.
After kattifying well we started thinking about the next plan.Sushi has been telling me that she wants to change her hair style as all her friends tell her that she looks veyr small.So we decided to get her a hair cut and change her hair style a little bit. I have aksed her to stop making plait and to leave it open .she has silky and lustrous hair.
We went to the Nails Studio in Portside Towers.The lady who was doing her hair asked the same question …guess wat?? Her Age and as she said she was a phd student she exclaimed and was so surprised , she thought that Sushi was just 12.Sushi was really irritated as she didnt like that thought of hers.But she told sushi that she will feel really good once she is 40 and people would think that she is just 20.:)….we will have to wait to see that happen.
Of all this the bad thing which almost mad me cry was that ……………………………. the woman thought that i am Sushi’s mom :(……oh my god!!!!!!!! that was the shock of my life.And the moment i came in the hugged Sudhar and was almost in tears. But Sushi and Sudhar console me saying that its not that i look older its that Sushi looks younger, but my arguement is that if Sushi looks younger i look like a mom of a young kid oh no it is not good.They also say that as i was wearing a Salwar KAmeez she must have thought like that. I dont know, whatever it may be it was bad.
Anyways how long can i brood with this , so we decided to go out to Revlon outlet Stores as cosmetics are cheap there. Sudhar said he will make us Tea and after having tea we started.
We were late,Revlon store closes at 5.30pm and we started only around 4.30.On our way we wanted to stop by at the Gas Station and to our luck the Gas station was fully crowded . Anyhow we reached the Revlon Store around 5.20.the moment we stepped in the lady started shouting at us saying that its the closing time and we can come tomorrow.
We came out and now me and Sushi were hungry.Sudhar suggested that we go to Oaktree Road and we can have some indian snack but we finally decided to eat Pizza. So we went to the nearest Domino’s and got one Pizza.It was delicious.Sushi also bought some flowers there as it was Mother’s(Pondicherry Annai) B’day on saturday.
Hari and Visa said that they would join us at Bridgewater Temple.So we thought we would go to Oaktree do some shopping as Sushi wanted to buy some Roti’s etc.But till the end we couldnt find Oaktree Road and in the end the one we found wasnt the right Oaktree Road.So we decided to go to Temple.
On our way to the temple Sudhar suggested going to Bridgewater Outlet Mall.But our luck!!!! we coudlnt find that also.
We went to the Temple.Temple was flooded with people, mostly foreigners.They were all together in a bunch with a guide.
One Chinese guy asked Sudhar some doubt abt the bell in the Temple.
We reached early so we were waiting for Hari Visa and Anand(Visa’s Cousin).
They finally arrived and Visa was looking very pretty in herSilk Sarree.
Again food, it was time for Dinner.We all decided to have dinner at the temple canteen.I was too full so i took only dahi vada.Anand couldnt eat there in the temple as it was the closing time and he got his Dosa very late.
All of us started and came back. Poor guys they had to go far. As we were driving back Sushi said she wanted to see Brooklyn Bridge in the night. So we drove to Brookly. Sudhar was saying that this was the first time he was driving to Brooklyn. We saw China town on our way. We took Manhattan Bridge to Brooklyn and our way back to Manhattan we took Brooklyn Bridge.
Sudhar was saying that Brooklyn Bridge is 100 years old and also on the day of blackout so many people were in Brooklyn Bridge that it started shaking a little.
We came back around 11.30 pm.WE were watching some serial on Women in old American times.
After it was over we were talking for sometime and then we all slept together. It was good like old days. All the kids in the family would sleep toether. In the small bed all 3 of us and no space to move. Both these sudhar and Sushi were holding me on each side.
Now was the sunday morning.We woke up late as we had slept only at around 2 am and we decided to stay home as Sushi had to start today.We woke up had breakfast and all 3 of us went down to take a walk. It was very windy so we came back.We decide to make just fried rice.
Spoke to Hinduja and Prabha(i couldnt speak to her).Hinduja has asked us to come during her spring break.Sushi might join us.
Sushi had got her assignment.She was a little busy and Sudhar also wanted to read for sometime.In the meantime i went and cooked.
Sushi was done with her work but Sudhar wanted to read a little more.
Both us decided to take a nap and leave Sudhar alone to read for sometime in peace.
Around 3.30 he woke us up and we started getting ready as we had to go to India Stores to buy something for Sushi.
There again we were hungry, we decided to go and eat something.We had masala dosai and Sudhar had Mysore Bonda.It wasnt good, dosa was bearable.
We were late.We had tp rush and to our bad luck there was a long queue standing outside Holland Tunnel.Well after a lot of tension we reached Port Authority @6.15 and her bus was at 6.20pm.
Yep, Sushi got a seat and she called us from the bus saying that she has got in.
We drove back peacefully but slowly as there was another long queue standing to go out of the city.
Sushi reached home safely and called us at around 12 in the night and left a msg.She would have submitted her assignment also.
We didnt do much, we came back on our way back we spoke to Dana and to my own surprise i didnt bore him much :). Bach gaya bechara.
This is a graphical representation of Sushi’s visit. I dont know why i write so many details. This reminds me of the long letters i used to write to my mom when i was in Chennai with my Aunt.
I am sure this time Sushi is not going to post a comment saying i felt as if i was withu guy:)……………. hope i havent missed anything.Sorry its very lengthy.
Bye.

Detroit….. This is the place where Sudhar first landed in America.I have been listening and wanting to go there for a long time, and now we finally made a trip to Detroit.
Yep on 13th evening we decided to start as this was a long weekend President’s Day being on 16th.Our flight was at 6.10 pm and inspite of all the pre planning and the packing we had to rush in the last minute.We were in time and the flight was late by about 15 minutes. We reached detroit around 8.30 and Babu Athimber picked us up from the airport.
We reached home after a drive of about 40 minutes.
Detroit is a calm place very unlike New York people settledown in their houses around 9 or max 10 pm. It was full of trees and the snow . It was very difficult for me to get the feel of the place in the night.
We reached home and saw Prabha, Gautham and Cute little Divya.
I was meeting them all for the first time, athimber was asusual teasing him and asking how far sudhar has learnt hindi .
Gautham is 7 years old and was curious to know how Harini looks as he generally likes Pretty Women.I hope he wasnt much disappointed.:)…
Then comes the sweet Divya walking with much difficulty.
She is jsut 1 and a half years old and is very chweet. She almost fell in love with sudhar the at first site.She won’t leave him even for a minute.Sudhar did pretty much everything for her, feeding the food to making her sleep. She was always in his lap.She wanted to show him everything she can do, her dolls and her Fav Doggy…………and the list goes on.She likes Sun TV the most. This is not it. there are so many more things about Divya that i am not able to write and express here.The moment we call her she will show her big bunny teeth smile and run towards us.
Gautham… sudhar got him a gameboy, its a digital game which really impressed him so much that most of the time he was busy trying to learn it, and here again my dear husband plays an important role as he had to read the manual and teach him.
Sudhar on the whole did a good job of managing both the children together.
Prabha was sweet. She cooks good food, and asusual in the process we kattified so much that now we r planning to go to the gym twice.
She is a wonder woman always on her toes, does all the work.But when she is in office Babu athimber takes care of the kids, and also Divya is very attached to him.
We reached on friday evening and spent the whole time with these people.
Next day morning around 11 we started took athimber’s car and reached to meet Dana and Santosh(Sudhar’s earlier roommates).
They were good . Eagerly waiting for us to come in, They had cleaned up their house vaccumed and everything was neatly set in place.It was good to see them, so many days i have bored them on phone.Santosh doenst talk much but poor Dana i have bored him really much.Yesterday also when i was calling everybody to tell them that we have reached i was talking something to Dana for which sudhar was saying “Don’t Kill them like this”…. ha ha ha Poor Guy!!!!!!!!

We reached there after kattifying Prabha’s good food….. we were talking for sometime and started seeing thier Florida Cassette.
After a while we decided to go out somewhere as Sudhar wasnt able to sit at one place for more than a few hours, and he started getting restless.
We decided to go and meet another friend who lives in Lansing.Lansing is the state capital of Michigan and is a little far from here.WE drove for about an hour and reached to meet Kali ( i dont know what his original name is i think its Senthil Kumar) and his wife. Spent an hour there had juice and noodles.Noodles was good which she had made in a desi style with spagetti.again we kattified and came back.
We came home and spent few hours with these guys and then we decided to go back to Prabha’s place.But before we could start i realised that i was hungry as i hardly got any noodles because we 3 were sharing the plate(me, Dan and Sudhar).So Dana made me khichdi and chutney, it was really tasty .
After eating we went home spent some time with kids playing and doing a little bit of hungama.
Now was the 3rd day and again today we had lunch invittion @ Raj’s place.I have spoken to his wife a few times . She’ a doctor and was studying here after she got married. She gavebirth to a sweet little daughter and they have named her Aishwarya.I am sure she’s going to be the future Miss.World.
All of us had to go , but we wanted t buy her a small gift aswe were meeting her for the first time.
In the morning that is saturday morning 14th feb, Dana came to pick us up (and guess what???????????????????????????? Divya liked him also very much).All of us went to the mall and picked up a sweet dress for Aishu.Then we had some discount offer so we decided to buy something else but as i couldnt find anything Dana decided to take a shirt. I insisted that he should go in for a bright colour, but he took the same old traditional white with blue stripes.Well but i am sure the arguement will continue for ever.He says that he wants to enjoy the freedom as he might be getting married soon, and once he is married he might have to buy these bright colours.
Santosh was not with us all this time as he was busy at home with Suganya :)… she is also very sweet, i have spoken to her few times and we mail each other once in a while. They are getting married on 8th July.
Now as we were done in GAP we went picked up Santosh and decided to go to Raj’s place imd, as it was already 12 and we had said that we will come at 12 noon. WE thought we might speak for a little while before we have lunch.
WE were too early and they were feeling bad that the lunch was going to take another 1 hour’s time.
These guys had a good time talking but i was a little bored as his wife and mother inlaw were busy cooking. So i browsed and watched tv for sometime.
We had lunch and started after a while. Priya (Raj’s wife)has asked me to tell her if i want something from India, as she might go to India next month.
I will have to prepare a big list and give her soon :)……..
When we were sitting with these guys(Dana & Santosh) in their house, raj alled and said that he will be coming as he hadnt packed the gift they got for us and so he will come and give it to us now and he also said that they need not tell us but poor guy didnt know that he was talking on the speaker phone ha ha ha !!!!!!!!!!!
Half of the day was over, now we were wondering what to do , in the meantime these guys called up another friend who is a north indian, actually maharashtrian and told him that we will come andmeet him .
So now we decided to go a little late as we were too early at Raj’ place.
But look at the irony, this guy was a little more punctual and called us around 4 to find out where we were and why still not home.
Well they were Sameer and Jui.Sameer is actually in Dana’s classmate in his MS and now working with dan and san .
They had made aalo tikia, which was good.We wereall busy seeing their marriage album and chatting.His wife is bored at home and that guy is not getting her Zee TV ,i was telling her that i also got it recently so u also better get it. He was feeling sorry for starting the discussion :)……well lets see how soon they get it.Actually the point is how long can u watch these english movies or games or even how long can u browse the net. You need something different, i dont say that Zee TV is too good but atleast a change.We have been watching that for years now and suddenly to become an english is a little difficult and will take some time.Well finally he said that he will get it for sometime and then may be they can decide.So its my contribution :)…………..
3rd day is over we came back from sameer’s place(While coming back from Sameer’s place Sudhar showed us the Hotel where he stayed when he first landed.) and took some snaps With Santosh and Dana and then Dana dropped us home.Snap has a wonderful funny story linked to it, but i wont write it here :)………….
Dana and Santosh would have felt much better if Sudhar could have spent some mroetime with them.One thing was that we were not staying there and the other thing was that i was there with him. Well i hope they felt comfortable .
They were all hugging each other while say bye…..poor guys…:(
Outside prabha’s house when we were saying bye to Dana we saw Aravind Ranjini driving in, we(me & Ranjini) have been wanting to meet each other for a long time.
Dana said goodbye and moved, we went in with Aravind Ranjini and another slot of hungama started.We all had a good time.Those 2 kids Gautham and Divya are crazy about Arvind.They wont leave him even for a minute.
They started around 11 and Ranjini asked us to come to her place next day for lunch.
That night Prabha gave me a sweet gift.One cute little gold earring and 2 electric vilakkus to keep in the pooja room.We have started using them. I have to call Prabha and tell her that they r sweet and that they give a good lighting and a bright effect to the whole place.
Next day morning i was a little late Prabha had started for her office so i couldnt meet her.Athimber was home we played with kids had breakfast and started for Ranjini’s place.We took our bags along so that incase we are late we can start for the airport form their itself.
When i was putting the bags in the car, i hit myself in the eye and thats it.Rest of the day it was paining but i am glad its better now.
We reached Ranjini’s place, she was busy cooking.We were talking for sometime and then Arvind came. She had made good delicious food.
We asked Arvind if he could drop us at the airport.
After talking for a while around 3 we started from their place left Athimber’s car in their house and went to airport.Ranjini says that she is desperate to see NY, i have asked ehr to come lets see when she comes. WE have big plans of shopping :)…
It was good 4days.The flight was a little late.We waited… and finally reached home safely.
During the whole trip”TUMMY GOT A LOT OF YUMMY FOOD”.

I hope this graphical representation of the trip is not bad.
Sushi and Sudhar have been asking me to write it for a long time.I dont know how good it is and also if its upto the expected level.I will know soon.

Ta ta

Thsi dinner plan has been long due, i guess for about 10 days.We were all about to meet last week but because of some problem we couldnt and finally we all met yesterday @ Pampano.Its a mexican seafood restaurant.
Yes its someting that i wont eat, actually its sometimes difficult being a vegetarian because u hardly get anything to eat. Especially New York City being so famous for all its non-veg food .
Well its okay everytime food is not the criteria… the main thing was to meet people there and get to knwo them. To make new friends and to have fun.
Initially i was a bit reluctant but i am glad i went.
We were totally 9 other than both of us there was Mohan, Hemachand and his wife Sridevi, Costas , Harris, Raymond and Kallol Ghosh.
Kallol was the one who organized all this i guess.
We started from here at around 7.30 and Mohan came to pick us up. I remember that in the process of being gentle to his luxury car i coudlnt close the door properly as it wanted me to be harder to it.Well i was just trying to be good to it. :)…… and another thing that surprised me was that we didnt have to stand in the long queue outside Hollan Tunnel. Believe it or not its sometimes a pain spending hours there. I think may be as it was a week day it wasnt that bad. I am happy it wasnt.WE were listening to some hindi songs and talking something, we reached the restaurant.
There we met Costas, he is from Greece and is very excited about the olympics as they are to be held in Greece this year.He is also handsome and we were asking him y he is still single, may be because he didnt get anyone to suit his personality. :)…..
second we met Hemachand and Sridevi, they were also very sweet.They are from Andhra Pradesh and were in North Carolina for few years i suppose. Sridevi was saying that there are so many Indians in N.C and Hemachand knows all of them and that too by their name.
She said she will give me tips on how to spend husband’s money on shopping. I think Sudhar should start being careful … She had joined some school also it seems but she dropped out as she thought that she needs some more time for herself.
Then we saw Harris, his sister is married to some Indian who is in Bihar now.He went to Bihar it seems and now he says that he never wants to go back to India again. Well Bihar is one of the worst places in India. ” Hell in India” no wonder y he says like that.
Raymond was a sweet naive guy, he was talking to us for sometime and was also asking me how i spend time at home and if i like it .
Finally Mr.Kallol Ghosh, his wife is in Boston and doenst want to come to NYC as she feels that life is much more peaceful there.He is travelling from Boston every week and lives in the same MArriot Hotel . Few also suggested that he should probably buy a room therein Marriot as he has been doing thsi for the past 5 years.
It was fun meeting all these people. I did not have much to talk about but i could listen to all of them . Many times they were talking about work and office but in between the big big office conversations i could hear few things which might interest me a little.
I even saw a sweet girl there in the restaurant she was neatly dressed in a white sleeveless top and a checked skirt.She ahd small curly hair. I like these type of smartly and appropriately dressed people, especially girls.
On the whole the dinner was good and fun.Hope others also felt the same.
Mohan dropped us back home. WE asked him to come up for sometime.All 3 of us had Tea and he was seeing our wedding snaps for sometime.
Our wedding album is the major timepass in our house right now, whoever comes we show them that big huge album.
Another thing which we were worried about was the sofa, i could hear a funny sound coming out of it, but i am glad it didnt let us down while Mohan was here. :)
seems loyal… lets see how long its going to be ……….
Other than all this we discovered something jsut before we left yesterday.
Yes about a course, but its a Toy Making course in NYC.Interesting huh??
It is…….i am also excited but have my own confusions about the expense and the career , shall try to sort it out soon. Am looking forward to it.
Am sure sudharshan is more excited than i am about the course and about me doing and becoming something big. Even now he is always full of talks about me only.my wife does this my wife does that……. chweet :)….
….. Bye

Haan nothing i dont have any specific topic or a subject to write about, but still felt like writing.
First of all got appreciation from sudhar on writing a detailed birthday celebration and that tooo with fullstops. I am glad he liked it.Well even now its him who asked me to write something and the reason he gives is that , once he reads my posting he will feel more enthusiastic and motivated to work .So what shall i talk about?
Generally on a give occassion and with people i talk and talk and talk for about hours together. Yes i am a “Chatter Box” . My intention is not to irritate people or give them a feeling of running a 1000 miles away at the sight of me.
But still i like talking let it be any age group, any topic(if i know something abt it). Similarly few years back my aim in life was to laugh, funny isnt it? Yes but i remember i used to say i jsut want to belaughing all the time, nothing else. And today i am . I dont think there is a single day when i am not happy or am not laughing, i am glad my wish is finally fulfilled.TOUCHWOOD………..
Sometimes i even think that so much of talking might spoil my image, in the sense that people might start thinking that “she is just like that”nonstop nonsense talking unnecessarly and irrelevant , but its not that i am sure i can be matured and responsible when needed.My only point is why stay grim and look more than your age when not needed. Am i right there?? i think yes and i would like to stay like this forever.Yes sometimes a balanced controlled talk helps :).
Yesterday i spoke to sushi, its good talking to her.She’s Sudhar’s cousin but now sometimes i wonder if she’s my cousin as its me who’s spending most of the time talking to her. I feel good with her .
Tonight we gotto go out for dinner, with sudhar’s friends. I hope things are going to be good as i dont know any of them.
Lets hope for the best….
Ta ta ……………..have to go and think about what to wear tonight ;)……
lets see if this is enough to motivate my dear husband………………. :)

Yes i really mean subway trains, they mean a lot to us especially if both of us are going somewhere.
The reason why i mentioned this is that we got into yet another discussion yesterday while we were going to Empire State and that too in subway.
This is the discussion we always have 99.9% of the times we get into them while we r in subway and te topic of the discussion is “Which school i should go to??? ” and which course i should study??
This happens because there are so many advertisements in the trains about the various courses and schools.
Sudhar wants me to go to some school learn something new, but i have a phobia of schools and exams, this is the main reason i hesitate, some might think that its just my laziness as i dont want to study.
another thing is now i am married and i am not a carreer oriented girl then why should go to big big schools just to earn a degree and sit at home.???
i really dont know if it makes sense and i am not i wont be doing justice to myself if i do that!!
To shell out a huge amount on education and then to sit at home is foolishness according to me.
Another main thing is if i had to make a career why did i get married, i would have done that there back in india. I am happy as i am now, the only thing i want to do is to do something small and earn a little money,feel good that i am not a burden on someone .
I dont want to neglect my sweet beautiful home and my husband and so many other small things that i do when i am at home.
Still i have started thinking about it, but one thing is for sure the moment we talk about it i start making faces and end up being quite aand gloomy.
I dont know what i want and even if i can explain it but i feel one thing that i might end up going to a school very soon.
I dont say that he is forcing me but talking about it and getting gloomy is bad for that i can as well run to the school and finish it up.
What he says is also right, we r running out of topics to talk about, so onc ei go to school and learn new things we might feel a little more excited and will get a lot more things to talk about…….. lets see
My motive of writing this is nto to hurt sudhar , i just felt like writing thats it. i am sorry if i am hurting you sudharshan.

So this is 9th Morning, and my birthdya is over, it was a great day.
The other half of the day we spent at Empire State Building and looking at New York City from the top most building there.
The view was so beautiful that now when we think that we would have to leave this city and move to some other place we feel bad but i guess that is life.
After we came back from Empire State i spoke to Priya as she had left a msg and also to my friend Smita.In the morning i also spoke to Shalu, its so good talking to these people once again after so many years.
In the night i also spoke to patti and chithi it was good talking to them after so long.
Birthday was on the a whole good sweet event… had a good time.
Gottto go to the Gym see u later bye

A very special and a wonderful occassion, oh my god again i am putting a coma and i should try not to do so.
I have got special instructions from my husband for using full stop….. :)
so i wanna say sorry to comas as i wont be able to use them much often ha ha ha
ok let me come to my bday celebration and excitement.
Till now i have celebrated my bday with my parents grandparents and friends and today here i am in a totally different place, a new country next to hudson river and with a totally enw person in my life.The person who is so special to me and he made my bday so special and wonderful .
I actually slept at around 11 last night after speaking to my mom for sometime.And suddenly my eyes opened around 11.45 pm when i saw that hewas not around me, now is the most dramatic beautiful scene he comes into the room, closes my eyes and takes me to the hall where he has decorated a beautiful cake he bought……. with candles.
Wow….. i never thought we would be celebrating the bday like this, but it was so special i am glad we could capture those few moments in the camera, shall upload soon.
Now comes the turn of the chweeeeeeet gift, u knwow what it is?
i chweet little finger ring.Its a white gold one with a heart and a diamond in that heart. Its very pretty and u know what he says its a 3 in 1 ring, its for my bday, valentines day and a diamond ring for the hands which make him good food everyday ……very thooughtful isnt it? I dont know how much i should thank my god or my stars for getting a good husband like him, i am not saying it because i got a diamond ring :), but for many other things we do together.
We like each other’s company, we love to spend time with each other, the fun we have together and the most imp thing the friendship and the bonding we share.
I dont know if these words are right to explain my feelings for him or they are even enough but i really feel it.I am very happy with him, he can make me forget anything and drag me out of any sad situation and put me into the best happy ones.
Todaymorning Sushi also called up to wish me and was saying that i sound very happy today, after coming to US this is probably the first time she is seeing me so happy.After listening abt the romantic B’Day celebration she said that i have changed him and she is asking how i did that. I dont know….
I have heard somewhere that love makes a person very good, in this case its a little different he is already good but has may changed a little Romantic.
Same thing Prabha also said when she heard of the ring, she was saying how has he become so romantic ha ha ha!!!!
I think all of them are wondering !!!!!!1
My mom and dad also called up in the morning, it was great talking to them, i spoke to papa after so long .He’s been running to chrompet to take care of his dad, but today he was there and they called up to wish me.Amma was asking if we opened a bottle of Champgne……….. :)
Then we spoke to Coimbatore they were all so happy, and appa was also saying that as we wont be able to speak to him kmu, he has come down to cbe to wish me, so cute na? yes definitely, i love them all very much.Just like my own amma appa.Sridhar was also there and wished me and also said that only the first few years i am going to get these expensive gifts and i should make good use of it ha ha ha!!!
It was fun talking to them all.I have been on phone from morning, even now i am talking to Bubu and he is trying to connect to Raji perima as she had called me in the morning but it was getting disconnecting.
So on the whole the Birthday Seems to be great with a fresh great beautiful start.
I think i should finish this and go and help my dear husband as he is busy doing the vaccum.I know b’day babies dont work on this special day :)…..
I hope i have written good with FullStops… i shall get the feedback from Sudhar and improve if needed.
So let me have a great day
Ta ta

hey sorry i know i was bad that i didnt write anything for the past 2 days, but was a little busy doing nothing, but somehow the time runs, i dont know how, well iam glad i am not bored all the day its just the 2 hours in the afternoon that i dont know what to do , but i am sure i will find something worth for that also, my daily routine is like all settled now, we wake up around 6 or may be 6.30, sudhar wants me to sleep a little more as i dont even sleep in the day time,but i want to wake up wiht him.
Then once he starts to office, i go to the Gym do some workouts (hope i shall cut down on my fat soon)come back browse for sometime and take bath eat something. Then my mom comes online , we speak almost daily but now i dont know what to talk, but i also know that she misses me and she’s alone and needs me, and this is probably the only way i can help her right now. So we spend an hour or so just chatting .
The best part of the whole day is that i dont cook in the day time, and manage with yesterday’s food or may be some bread or fruits, i bought Water Melon as i know it helps reduce weight, i have tried it once when i was in chennai.
Now is the boring part of the day Afternoon, i watch something in tv and around 4 i will be fine again, shall start my dinner menu or something better on tv.
I generally try to finish up cooking ym dinner early as i will get some more time to spend with sudharshan,so after he comes we will spend sometime talking leisurely. and then i can start with roti.
We are like punjabi’s these days eating only roti sabji daily, we eat rice only on weekends, in a way its good for health so doesnt matter.
In between all this i do a little bit of toy making knitting etc, we even bought a book on toy making, Sudhar ….good husband he is ready to get me anything i want but i dont know if i am making use of all that properly??
so this is my day, but today……….
i havent yet gone to the gym…. sudhar and visa left jsut now, visa had come yesterday i went and picked her up from Grand Central.she has some work here in exchange place.
I am feeling a little low, depressed, and u know what is the worst in feeling depressed, that once if i sya this sudhar will also feel bad and worry about me.
i dont know.
so have a little bit of work today, i started my head band yesterday so wanna finish it today, and also have to make toys of divya and rajkumr’s daughterAishwarya. Hope they like it!!!!!
that is it for today, shall come again if i feel like saying something
ta ta have a great day………..

so,i am back after 2 days again, well i know i was lazy and its not good to do like this, but to be frank i was a little busy with my outings and then with guests at our place, so on saturday we went out for lunch at suresh’a place, good food good people and a very sweet daughter, all was fun, but the poor kid ahs rashes all over her body, little kid and so much of sufferring,well lets hope she will be fine soon, then from there we went to one tamil sangam prog, we mainly went tthere to listen to srikant’s orchestra but he didnt turn up, anyways the show was too good initial kadi progs but the symphony orchestra was good, good host , good music eveytrthing was good, the main thing was the the lead female singer, HARINI i think by default these harini’s r good ….. ha haha!!!!!!… but we had to start early as we were hungry and also it was a little tiring, btu we got an idea of how the orchestra is……then next day we woke up late invited bubu for lunch, that guy came late, for 1 o clock lunch he reached at around 3 , that was bad, but no worries we could spend sometime together, it was a day full of fun and laughter, after a few hours sudhar’s friend vadivel joined us, and again we started laughing teasing…… i had made some cutlet type of a thing, which luckily all liked, and also dhania chutney along with it, i sent few with bubu and vadivel also, bubu called up today to say that they were good….well i am glad people liked it, something good i do ….well that snack was so heavy that we skipped our dinner,
and the weekend was over, they run away fast,
and now again monday morning, sudhar woke up first and asusual started for office, today he wanted me to join for dinner with his friends, but i was thinking what i will do with them but then we thought may b it will be a good outing and also i would get to meet a few new people but they postponed the dinner for next week, so lets see,
also today i ahd severe headache, the whole day, but am better now, made beetroot halwa, sudhar said it was good, poor guy i dont think he has a way out, i try everything on him, but he doesnt say a single thing for that and onyl appreciates and encourages me, sweet husband, and very loving too, …then what nothing much happenning, here am just waiting to get into my dream world, :)….. so time to sleep gotto call sushee c u then
ta ta shall write again tomorrow adios!!!!!!!

so today is the last working day of the week, sudhar has successfully completed 1 week in his new job, and he seems to like it, and best thing is that his new office has changed our routine we wake up early in the morning , i go to the gym early morning, and feel fresh the rest of the day, so indirectly its helping me also,
well today i didnt do anything much, didnt cook anything the whole day, jsut had a chat with amma, saw bombay calling was a good humurous movie,and also a made a puppy, but i dont seem to like it much as i feel it could have been little more sweeter….anyways i will wait for sudhar to give his final comment, then saw Harry Potter once again for nth time, but slept for 10 misn inbetween as a having a mild back ache today,
i also have cook now for the evening as we have to go shopping, this is our weekly shopping, sabji, grocery etc, so it will 10 by the time we reach home, so better cook and go, nothing much other than all this, so shall wind up, say ta ta…… tomorrow we have to go suresh’s place for lunch…. so am looking fwd to it..it should be fun,lets see
ok GN timeto go and cook something for the night

so………..i was vetti today, did not do a single thing other than cooking, i think thats was the only useful thing i did today, or may be yes washing clothes, so the day was pretty usual, nothing much to write about, went to grnad central met visalakshi and got the dvd, she had borrowed, will watch it tomorrow so hopefully tomorrow i will have something spl to do,
today while walking to the station i was thinking if i should get a bunch of flowers for sudhar, very strongly felt like giving him something just a differnt way of showing love, but after a lot of debate i did not buy it, as i want to gift him something myself, i had money i have card everything, but no… the day i earn i will get him something, but i dont know how long i will have to wait for it, its true i never wanted to be a career woman, i am happy as i am, but these small things, worry or should say bother me a little, if i feel like gifiting something what should i do, this was the reason why i started working back in india, its also not that i spend a whole lot of money lavishly, i sometimes think if iam helpful to anyone,i couldnt complete my education successfully couldnt, do what i wanted to, i dont know if i am or i was of any use to my parents also, i feel all of them have had some prob because of me, if i say this they will feel bad, and i dont know why i am writing it here also today, may be i should not write it as if someone reads it they might get hurt, i wish it was personal and no one could have read it, that way i can write without hurting anyone…..
they all love me so much, and i have got an equally loving husband, but am i returning their love , am i doing good, donnno……….
ok let me finish it, its now use talking this, i aam
ok good night time to sleep, sudhar is studying i am waiting for him to finish …
ta ta

namaste means hello in hindi, i love hindi, its like my mother tongue, and here in USA i was missing hindi so much, but now finally my darling husband has got me Zee TV, and hence lots of hindi stuffs…………..its so good to see those hindi faces, and serials, all women crying their husbands having extra marital affairs and stuffs, its good to see all that once again,
sometimes i dont een feel like i am in America, we have built a small india here i think, who would think of having dosa and chutney here. but we do, and its good, things are so different after marriage, gotto do everything on my own, everything is mine, kitchen, drawing, dining, bed and even the bathroom, i have to take care of everything, the cooking and i am glad sudhar likes my cooking, he also helps me sometimes, and to be true he also cooks good, so life seems to be pretty happy and enjoyable, i am glad we got each other, the good understanding, love and definitely friendly and jolly nature of sudhar adds on to all this, he is really a good husband and a very good friend, each and everyday the understanding and love grows, and i am happy about it,
even if he is sitting in font of the comp from morning 8 to afternoon 2.30 its ok ha ha ha!!!!!!!!! we have good moments and memories to think and cherish ………….. !!!!
right now i am scolding him to study for sometime before he goes to sleep, so let me go and sit with a scale in front of him…………..ta ta….

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy……………so hows life, its good and very cold here,and the best thing which i have been telling everyone is that the river in front of our house is frozen and it looks so beautiful,today i started my gym schedule, so slowly trying to get back to shape once again,”try try touch the sky”……………. also made a new doggy today, white cute one i guess sudhar has already mentioned about it in his weblog,
ok its time for dinner now,and today we are having dinner according to my husband’s wish, i am generally used to eating roti with some desi sabji and we were doing that till now but today he wanted to have vatha kozhambu… so gotto eat………..ok then c u ta ta………ciao

Hi, I am Harini. right now i am in USA, never thought i would be here….and am spending my time happily here with my husband, cooking different types of food and doing different types of crafts, and finally i got my fur and have made a doll, he also liked it a lot and am very happy, so i think now its time to sleep with this same happy feeling and dream……. so good night ta ta!!!!!
Adios …………………….