Subway Trains…
Yes i really mean subway trains, they mean a lot to us especially if both of us are going somewhere.
The reason why i mentioned this is that we got into yet another discussion yesterday while we were going to Empire State and that too in subway.
This is the discussion we always have 99.9% of the times we get into them while we r in subway and te topic of the discussion is “Which school i should go to??? ” and which course i should study??
This happens because there are so many advertisements in the trains about the various courses and schools.
Sudhar wants me to go to some school learn something new, but i have a phobia of schools and exams, this is the main reason i hesitate, some might think that its just my laziness as i dont want to study.
another thing is now i am married and i am not a carreer oriented girl then why should go to big big schools just to earn a degree and sit at home.???
i really dont know if it makes sense and i am not i wont be doing justice to myself if i do that!!
To shell out a huge amount on education and then to sit at home is foolishness according to me.
Another main thing is if i had to make a career why did i get married, i would have done that there back in india. I am happy as i am now, the only thing i want to do is to do something small and earn a little money,feel good that i am not a burden on someone .
I dont want to neglect my sweet beautiful home and my husband and so many other small things that i do when i am at home.
Still i have started thinking about it, but one thing is for sure the moment we talk about it i start making faces and end up being quite aand gloomy.
I dont know what i want and even if i can explain it but i feel one thing that i might end up going to a school very soon.
I dont say that he is forcing me but talking about it and getting gloomy is bad for that i can as well run to the school and finish it up.
What he says is also right, we r running out of topics to talk about, so onc ei go to school and learn new things we might feel a little more excited and will get a lot more things to talk about…….. lets see
My motive of writing this is nto to hurt sudhar , i just felt like writing thats it. i am sorry if i am hurting you sudharshan.