hmmmmmmmm…….
so………..i was vetti today, did not do a single thing other than cooking, i think thats was the only useful thing i did today, or may be yes washing clothes, so the day was pretty usual, nothing much to write about, went to grnad central met visalakshi and got the dvd, she had borrowed, will watch it tomorrow so hopefully tomorrow i will have something spl to do,
today while walking to the station i was thinking if i should get a bunch of flowers for sudhar, very strongly felt like giving him something just a differnt way of showing love, but after a lot of debate i did not buy it, as i want to gift him something myself, i had money i have card everything, but no… the day i earn i will get him something, but i dont know how long i will have to wait for it, its true i never wanted to be a career woman, i am happy as i am, but these small things, worry or should say bother me a little, if i feel like gifiting something what should i do, this was the reason why i started working back in india, its also not that i spend a whole lot of money lavishly, i sometimes think if iam helpful to anyone,i couldnt complete my education successfully couldnt, do what i wanted to, i dont know if i am or i was of any use to my parents also, i feel all of them have had some prob because of me, if i say this they will feel bad, and i dont know why i am writing it here also today, may be i should not write it as if someone reads it they might get hurt, i wish it was personal and no one could have read it, that way i can write without hurting anyone…..
they all love me so much, and i have got an equally loving husband, but am i returning their love , am i doing good, donnno……….
ok let me finish it, its now use talking this, i aam
ok good night time to sleep, sudhar is studying i am waiting for him to finish …
ta ta